Today is not a good day because I have experienced a flashback while walking my dog Stella first thing this morning. They find it hard to image their mums standing where I stand talking about them if they had lost their life, when I ask them to. And when I am talking to young people in colleges, I see him in his latest tracksuit and designer trainers awkwardly looking back at me, like some of the other boys do. I see him in his school uniform with his happy smiling face looking at me. I also tell them that even looking at them as they sit there looking back at me breaks my heart as I see Josh’s face when he was their age. I talk about the impact that Josh’s death has on me, Josh’s family and his friends every single day. To educate young people and help prevent them from carrying a knife, I choose my words carefully as I share Josh’s life with them. Did he not learn the valuable lessons that I taught Josh throughout his short life, good from bad, right from wrong, empathy, respect, compassion and love? To be honest, knowing the answer would make no difference to me as it won’t bring Josh back home. Evil because he has no morals and is downright wicked. Today I will share one of those with you, and that is evil. A prolific offender or a hardened criminal is a term that I have used for him when sharing Josh’s story in schools and colleges, but I have many more that I use to describe him in private. A man with 17 previous convictions and who was known to the police. Our past often has a nasty way of coming back to haunt us.Today marks four years and seven months since Josh was taken from me by Shane O’Brien. (Yeah, I explain that in my previous story as well).īut I should have known I couldn’t avoid Taylor forever. Which is pretty good considering my boyfriend is a family friend of his. I had successfully avoided Taylor for five years. He’s a part of my past – or so I thought. I’ll never forget the time him and I spent together, though I desperately wish I could.īut I know more than anyone that sometimes what you love or want isn’t what you need. Taylor’s smile, what he said, how he touched me…it’s all still so fresh in my mind. I remember that trip to Tulsa like it was yesterday, though I wish I didn’t. The later? Well, one thing led to another I guess…
HANSON STOP ME IN MYTRACKS FREE
Feel free to go read it before you dive into this sequel. How did I meet Taylor Hanson, you ask? And more importantly, how the hell did the affair happen? The former – well, I wrote about that in my previous story. What the two of us shared was pretty incredible in its own way, even if it was entirely toxic. It’s byproduct of what Taylor and I shared.
I know my boyfriend Ryan would be hurt if he saw I still had it. It’s hidden in one of my dresser drawers, under my socks. I still have the tape Taylor gave me, the note that had accompanied it, with the song on it he wrote about me. I’m a stage manager and pinup model.īack in 2014 I had an affair with Taylor Hanson.Īdmitting this still feels surreal to me. I can't just continue being a "fan" you know? It just all leaves a bad taste in my mouth."
I know you have been a fan for a long time, right?" I'll always love their music, but I don't think I could see Taylor ever again. "I mean, I probably won't go to shows anymore. "Are you still going to be a fan? After all this, I mean." Ryan asked.
But I still love Hanson fan fiction, and I guess this is just a little gift to all the wonderful friends, fans, and writers I have met though this fandom. A sequel has been swimming around in my mind for a while now so here it is.Īlso like many of us in this fandom, my relationship with Hanson and their music is.complicated after all that's happened. But I loved writing it and people really enjoyed it. I see now looking back it was a flawed story and there were plot aspects that I never really delved into. I wrote "Unexpected Beautiful" in 2014 and originally posted it on Tumblr.
Please do not read if you are under the age of 13. Rated PG-13 for language and sexual situations. This is a sequel to my previous story, "Unexpected Beautiful." It is highly recommended you read that before this. This story was written for entertainment only and not for profit. For authenticity's sake, the places described in Tulsa and the surrounding areas are real. All of the characters (except the Hansons, of course) are fictional, and any resemblance to real persons, living or dead is purely coincidental.
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